posted on Sunday, September 1, 2013 at 11:55 PM
I finally set my heart to do a post.
Roller coaster past few weeks.. Though not much complain about NS, certain things are still a pain in the ass. Other than that things are ok.
It's tough, to balance my own emotion and to deal with yours. I know it's my duty to ensure you are happy, but everything just seem so difficult. This is my dessert, my karma, whatever you call it. Sometimes i just scroll through our picture and feel horrible, for we once had beautiful faces and pictures, and not now. I miss it, just as you do. I feel bad, guilty, for treating you like this. I failed. I don't know what to do, how to claim myself to make it up to you. Fed up. I don't know.. I just hope things improve and get better. We've walked this far and i'm certainly hoping it won't stop. I love you baby. I love you.