posted on Monday, April 28, 2014 at 10:44 PM
Thoughts.
It is like dejavu all over again, except that this time is way harder.
I honestly had expected such things to happen, but i was at the midst of fixing things up.. I really have myself to blame. I brought this upon myself. What was magical, brilliant, amazing was destroyed by all the little things that ever built up between.
I know we should never regret in life, but face it.. it is inevitable. Hence, this is by far the worst i ever regretted. It will be a month soon. It hurts inside, no matter how hard, how tough i put up a strong and brave front. All those fake emotions, it is no different from being a con artist.
I miss many stuffs. How we used to blog regularly and shared with each other.. and stuffs like that.
Especially on the videos i compiled into youtube before i entered army. I mean, that was the tear jerker. I burst into a complete waterfall, with no ending. I miss everything.
I reflected. I remorsed. I understood. I regretted.
But that is the past, and i want it to be put behind so that i could start all over with you, anew, afresh.
I realised, how important
'forever' is, and i will make it happen. We still have so much to do. So much.. to accomplish together, to die together, to live together forever after.
I.. have so much to share with you.