Reminisce.
Watched the video i collated through the months..

Baby i miss you so bad. You're the answer to my smiles. I love you, forever.
I'm thankful for you.

Sometimes, i feel like how i grew up as a young kid to what i am now has deeply affected how i live my life.. At times, it feels ultimately empty.. and lonely.

Not that i do not have a dad, but having a stepdad can never stop me from needing a true fatherly love. Through this, i feel jealously, all around me, almost in every situation. I get competitive. I want what others have.. but i don't most of the time, which leads to feeling unfairly treated my whole damn life. It's tough shit.. but i fight for my rights, and because of this, i also think that life is super unfair to me.

THIS, is why fairness is such a sensitive and particular subject to me. Selfish act is almost as bad as being unfair. I don't know. I may think differently, and i may be labelled as too calculative, or overly sensitive, or even ridiculous but what the heck. I grew up this way, and this is never going to be easy to change.. I really hope things get better..

WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU WILL ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER