posted on Tuesday, October 23, 2012 at 11:50 PM
Perhaps through these period i'm on MC with chicken pox has really weakened me. Both physically and emotionally..
Today i wasted my day away lazing in front of the computer for hours. It was only during the evening i decided to go for a jog and find out where my fitness stand after so long without any training. I felt weak, i felt breathless. Everything was tumbling down as i had to withstand headache and tiredness while on the run. I'm now unfit.
Emotionally wise, i personally felt that i've became twice as insecure, and sensitive. I don't know why, but i felt like i need double the assurance, double the confirmation. Maybe, after all the weeks i've been cooped up in the room, i felt vulnerable and became more emotional. I felt useless, unable to eat certain stuffs, unable to book in and join my unit, unable to do things i always do, unable to go out and etc. I felt horrible, and it had hurt me in many ways, thus weakening me in an instant. Honestly, it feels like a live nightmare going on as much as my life is slowly going back to normal. I just hope time heals. I need to focus and be back on track..