posted on Sunday, October 14, 2012 at 4:35 PM
It has already been a few days.. probably the 3rd day now i had this chicken pox.
I look horribly bad. Perhaps the karma i'm getting for always boasting about my skin. I deserve it. Nonetheless, i got to admit having this disease got to be the toughest shit i've to bear in my life. Yes, i've said it, even worst than field camp. I can't report to SCS tomorrow because of this condition..
Cooped, trapped, quarantined.. whatever words you want to use. I feel like an alien in the house. Most of the time i face my 4 walls. Mental stress at its best. I'm most vulnerable to evil thoughts, bad stuffs and you name it. I don't know, i feel horrible. I don't know how much i must endure this until, but it is really torturous. Just.. hope for the best.
I feel like when i release a few restriction, you feel like i'm running away from you because you feel i don't care as much for you. Tell me what you want..? Tell me what to do now..