posted on Thursday, October 18, 2012 at 1:56 PM
Specialist Cadet School.
That was my posting which was suppose to start on Monday. Right now I'm 1 day before my MC end. But because I'm with chicken pox, a review is needed. So i went just now. Doctor had a good look at my spots and blisters.. and he gave the answer i wish he never gave. I will be extending my MC for another week. Now the problem is, my unit has been calling me up and i was all hopes up when i was told i need to be back in camp this Saturday because they will try to rush all that i've been missing out so far.
I've talked to my master sergeant, thankfully he is a nice guy and he understood about chicken pox more than any other of the clerks that has been calling me. He knew my condition may take awhile but he handed over to my OC, who is my master warrant officer. Both of them told me to just rest now and recover, return only on the designated date of my MC. But of cause, since i'll be missing the live firing next week, that is one high key missed and they warned me about a probable out of course if they can't force me back into schedule with the rest of the company. It broke my heart. It was everything i feared, to have my time wasted, my efforts to get into command school wasted, and wait till the next batch which is in December to re-course. That is 2 months of waiting time, and my eventual national service period of 1 year 10 months will be back to 2 years..
All the time, i've worked hard in BMT for the hope of command school. SCS may not be what i wanted, but i'm contented enough, because i've set my heart to work even harder for the hope to cross over to OCS. Now that things have got complicated, I feel horrible. Maybe going to command school was motivated by the higher allowance, but what i wanted too, was the pride that one day when i'm done serving, i get to tell people of my experience, my rank, my wing.
Right now there is nothing i can do, but to stay home, recuperate and convince myself with this phrase : "If it is meant to be it will meant to be.." I hope for the best.