Sunday. Final day of my 'holiday' after my extended MC.
I'm finally booking in tomorrow, to reach before 8am. It's going to be new and foreign for me, because i will be kind of the outcast when i join up my company. Sadly, i supposed i will be named the 'Chicken Pox Guy'. Then again.. i wouldn't be surprised..
Whatever it is, i just hope for a good news. I hope that i will not be required to wait till December to recourse. I hope that i will fit into schedule and be in time with the rest of the company. Either way, i just hope for the best for myself, whatever it takes..

2 weeks had passed, quite slowly to be honest, maybe due to my sickness which led to the time passing 3 times slower. Chicken pox is all behind me now, though some scars are still healing.. I know it will take awhile to get back to where i let off, and be back to where i was, mentally and physically. I guess i have to be real prepared and switch back to army lifestyle as soon as possible!


Spend my Sunday with my beloved girlfriend! Surprised her at Yishun with her favourite sardine puffs, and she has some brownie for me as breakfast. Head off to Expo for Sunday's service. I was mad tired and sleepy but well it was great to catch up with some of the people there. Had lunch with them and we went off to Marine Parade for a short trip as we wait for my darling's friend. Went into Mothercare, and man.. reminds me a lot of how i wish to be a father back then. Not that i don't want it anymore, but just don't have the means right now.. Then again, i'm closer to that dream somewhat.. Hahaha. So we all cabbed to Pasir Ris because they are going their colleague's baby first month celebration. I went back. Packed my field and duffel bags. I think i'm ready. Bye civilian life!

Perhaps through these period i'm on MC with chicken pox has really weakened me. Both physically and emotionally..

Today i wasted my day away lazing in front of the computer for hours. It was only during the evening i decided to go for a jog and find out where my fitness stand after so long without any training. I felt weak, i felt breathless. Everything was tumbling down as i had to withstand headache and tiredness while on the run. I'm now unfit.

Emotionally wise, i personally felt that i've became twice as insecure, and sensitive. I don't know why, but i felt like i need double the assurance, double the confirmation. Maybe, after all the weeks i've been cooped up in the room, i felt vulnerable and became more emotional. I felt useless, unable to eat certain stuffs, unable to book in and join my unit, unable to do things i always do, unable to go out and etc. I felt horrible, and it had hurt me in many ways, thus weakening me in an instant. Honestly, it feels like a live nightmare going on as much as my life is slowly going back to normal. I just hope time heals. I need to focus and be back on track..

Almost 2 weeks into my chicken pox. I feel absolutely fine and healthy, but my spots are still not entirely dried up yet. Nonetheless..

My darling baby came over on Friday night for a stay-over. I miss her so much and i appreciate her efforts to always find time to be with me. The next day was alright, but we woke up really early to follow mum to Lor Ah Soo market for the first time. We had our breakfast there, did some grocery shopping and head home. Prepared popiah ingredient because my girl has to deliver to her cell group's meeting.

Apparently, Saturday was our 11th monthsary, and i'm gutted we could not have anything planned due to my sickly condition. However, it was also darling's friend's birthday celebration over at timbre. I managed to follow her and i met up some of my friends too. We hung out, had dinner at timbre. Mine was okay, but the portion was pathetic. Billed and we walked over to boat quay, watched Chelsea match at some Liverpool home bar and Manchester United's at Hooters. Spent so much on food, but well, about time i treated myself some nice goodies after being quarantined at home for so long. Met up my darling at clarke quay MRT and we took the last train back i think.
This was the first time, we spent our monthsary overnight! Something new, something to remember.

Baby, i'm sorry we did not have any proper celebration, but you know i'll always love you. I'll make it up to you one day, and i promise our 1st year anniversary will not be a let down! (:

Happy 11th Month sweetie pie. <3

Specialist Cadet School.
That was my posting which was suppose to start on Monday. Right now I'm 1 day before my MC end. But because I'm with chicken pox, a review is needed. So i went just now. Doctor had a good look at my spots and blisters.. and he gave the answer i wish he never gave. I will be extending my MC for another week. Now the problem is, my unit has been calling me up and i was all hopes up when i was told i need to be back in camp this Saturday because they will try to rush all that i've been missing out so far.

I've talked to my master sergeant, thankfully he is a nice guy and he understood about chicken pox more than any other of the clerks that has been calling me. He knew my condition may take awhile but he handed over to my OC, who is my master warrant officer. Both of them told me to just rest now and recover, return only on the designated date of my MC. But of cause, since i'll be missing the live firing next week, that is one high key missed and they warned me about a probable out of course if they can't force me back into schedule with the rest of the company. It broke my heart. It was everything i feared, to have my time wasted, my efforts to get into command school wasted, and wait till the next batch which is in December to re-course. That is 2 months of waiting time, and my eventual national service period of 1 year 10 months will be back to 2 years..

All the time, i've worked hard in BMT for the hope of command school. SCS may not be what i wanted, but i'm contented enough, because i've set my heart to work even harder for the hope to cross over to OCS. Now that things have got complicated, I feel horrible. Maybe going to command school was motivated by the higher allowance, but what i wanted too, was the pride that one day when i'm done serving, i get to tell people of my experience, my rank, my wing.

Right now there is nothing i can do, but to stay home, recuperate and convince myself with this phrase : "If it is meant to be it will meant to be.." I hope for the best.

Every time i see you step out of my house, my heart feels all empty again.
You are indispensable to my life. I need you.
These period i'm sick has made me see more of your loving side. I miss you.

Thank you for being amazing.
Thank you for being awesome.
Thank you for being by my side.

&Most of all..

Thank you, for loving me.
I love you.

It has already been a few days.. probably the 3rd day now i had this chicken pox.
I look horribly bad. Perhaps the karma i'm getting for always boasting about my skin. I deserve it. Nonetheless, i got to admit having this disease got to be the toughest shit i've to bear in my life. Yes, i've said it, even worst than field camp. I can't report to SCS tomorrow because of this condition..

Cooped, trapped, quarantined.. whatever words you want to use. I feel like an alien in the house. Most of the time i face my 4 walls. Mental stress at its best. I'm most vulnerable to evil thoughts, bad stuffs and you name it. I don't know, i feel horrible. I don't know how much i must endure this until, but it is really torturous. Just.. hope for the best.


I feel like when i release a few restriction, you feel like i'm running away from you because you feel i don't care as much for you. Tell me what you want..? Tell me what to do now..

Not entirely in the mood for a post, but i shall anyway..

So this week is my block leave after POP. Went to batam on Monday with my beloved girlfriend and mum. Bought lots of stuffs back and i believe it was really fun for all of us! Especially weird and scary experiences like taking a cab that is not a cab at all.. I'm sure there will be more trips soon!

Tuesday was alright. Met my princess and her mum for shopping! Ate a lot, and even got to play with Davis boy during dinner at Pizza Hut!

Wednesday was a bit of a lag. Walked around Ikea to get some ideas for my new room and my princess bought me lao ban tau huey which was simply amazing! Got home and i instantly had fever..

Next day, which is today, i had chicken pox. Bad bad bad bad timing. This sucks so much. Well, nothing much to update..

Thank you baby for taking care of me when i'm at my weakest.. Sorry to have caused you so much inconveniences.. I love you. <3

POP! Yes! I've graduated from BMT! 9 weeks of recruit training completed! I'm glad it is over, but i'll definitely not forget what i've learned through these weeks. I always believed in what my OC tell us, that national service is about finding your true character and not to build one.

It has been a wonderful journey, doing stuff that we as civilians may never get to do. I even managed into the company's top 30% of the recruits! Hopefully i get my command school!

So we bid goodbye to many things, our bed, bunk, wardrobe, everything else you can ever imagine! Assembled at Tekong Parade Square, and we were off in the ferry. Reached mainland Singapore and we marched a good 2km to our warm up area! Started around 6pm when we set off for the real march.. Passed a long stretch beside Changi airport, and along ECP. We spent most the time there because it was really a long stretch. We chatted as we were not allowed to sing, and well, snacked here and there, encouraging one another. It was an interesting march, because we will pass by many different members of the public.. People who will shout "ORD LO!" and people who will give encouragement that gives instant motivations. There was once we passed this bar restaurant, and the emcee even gave us an encouragement which then led to the all the customers cheering and clapping. It was definitely motivating, because we honestly needed that. The backpack was insanely heavy though it was not supposed to. Back aches, shoulder aches, heels breaking, ball of the foot hurting, arms aching, sweat soaking up and shits like that, but we pushed on. Blue was our favourite color throughout the march though, because for every blue lightsticks we see throughout, it is a sign that it will be our rest point! Reached our destination at around 2am+. It was certainly more than the stated 24km route march. Nonetheless, we conquered and persisted. Changed up to new smart fours and we had a short nap till 5am.

It was then, the moment we have been waiting for, our graduation parade! All our hard done rehearsals under the hot sun will now be displayed to our parents, and the public. I wouldn't say we were at our best, but we really did our best considering we only had a short rest. Saw my parents, beloved girlfriend and some friends among the crowd! Here are the pictures from that day..














 Very grateful that they were all able to make it to the parade. Amazing experience, amazing time. Call me a man now okay!

So we ate, got home, napped awhile, off to service with my darling girl. After that, met up KC and Jon for dinner at Upp Thomson! My treat as an appreciation for attending my POP! Hahahaha..


We had dim sum and some ze char. Ice cream waffle for dessert and back. Not entirely a perfect situation to end the day, but we had some incident moving our car out of the parking lot because some dude parked his car way too outside and it has blocked the path and we all waited for a damn 30mins or so. Nonetheless, it was an amazing day because I POP already!!! (:

WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU WILL ONLY MAKE YOU STRONGER